alone

I walk tenderly over the jagged rocks
Knowing with every step I bleed
Hearing the voices ask may I guide you
But somehow wanting to struggle with the loss

Alone in my pain
No one worldly knowing my anguish
Or how I will get through this
As I meander beside their souls

The one I’ve chosen
Simply too lost to grab hold
Having no sense of my depth
Or how much I suffer

Alone in my pain
Seemingly alone in my world
Without the one to connect
If only the desire to know

I hide in my smile
To bind my sorrow somewhere unknown
The one I’ve chosen
Chooses not to dwell in the openness

Alone in my pain
I cry in the silence
Of my own existence
Without hope that anyone will hear

The stones dig deep
The blood runs vivid red
The voices to carry me diminish
As I no longer react with emotion

Alone in my pain
I bury all that holds me
And treats me kind
For all that is bitter

My hope lies not
In my chosen
For distant repetition
Is leading my jagged path

Alone in my pain
Alone to long for an end
Alone in understanding
Alone in being alone