i am in salt lake city utah. it sucks. the weather is sucky and i don't really care for the people. i assume they are all mormon and thus instantly can't stand them for their brainwashing skills. i know that is not true and i shouldn't think like that, but it is odd here. it always feels like there is a whole secret underground world here. if you aren't a mormon, you never know what is going on and you are an "outsider". i hate it here.
i really just want to come home. i am so sick of hotels, airports and bad food. i miss my wife and my kids. sometimes, and only for a millisecond, i even miss my dogs. i miss being at home every night. i miss being able to have a life away from work. i quit the worship band at church because i just do not have the time to be at practice and that is not fair to the others. i neglect things at my house because i haven't the time to start and finish the job. i neglect my family because they consume time, of which i have very little because i am away from home so often. i really suck as a person right now. sometimes i get so mad that i have built a life style that requires me to keep this job, because it pays well. i know i am not alone in feeling this way. many people get into the same situation. and i am sure if i didn't have a good job that paid well, i would be complaining that i have nothing.
i need to be smacked!
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